deadbutalive666

    Sitting around this house by myself, I learn more about myself. I'm pretentious and very movable by anything emotional. I love life, but I won't give it a chance because I feel more afraid of putting myself out there than just sitting down and becoming lazy. Then I noticed, what I am more afraid of... becoming life my family. Becoming over weight, low end jobs with no real education and children for damn reason alone and not determined by others. But mostly having self doubt about myself.    Now, I wonder how I can become better, I am now going to step out of my comfort zone and do some things I don't normally do because I don't like th

if people are to be here and become what they want to be in life, then why cant they do it? why is the world all about stupid intelligence in everthing? why are there people so obsessed with wanting the world to become perfect in every little detail as possible? why become something that everybody knows they arent? whats the meaning of being fine without something thats actually part of you instead of trying to be the one you truely understand better than the one you know that will never be in your heart? i cant really understand why such things have to exist in order to run your own life in the world... they say that there are horrible thing

What is love really? how can this be express from a woman to a man without the "sex"? how can they be established without such nonsense? Lately i can never get my head off the subject at all because ive just been wanting straight answers, but can never find them at all. and how can you say that you love this person when you barely or just dont know nothing about them at all but asked them out and 3 days later can easily say "i love you"? this is all confusing to me, because lots of dudes these days just want an easy girl to lay man....ugh!! X( i hate love!